It’s 4am…and I’m just sitting here thinking about it…this feelings shit is getting old….I’m sick of it….
Ghost - Ghuleh/Zombie Queen
If you’re so goddamn worried about me being the one who got away, then try actually working for it…I don’t need to hear how great I am from someone who can’t get their maturity in place. If you really want me then work on why I stopped trying and get back to me months from now, because I’m not wasting my time waiting for you or going back with you at that level any time soon.
May or May Not have just used DMB to start talking to a stranger on the internet…..Alexis I figured you’d see this here before facebook, I thought you would be proud <3
well it was passionate, it was also short-lived. I don’t know how someone says the level of strong things that were said and the next day has trouble realizing what they want. Oh well. Not gonna put myself through dealing with that, 2nd chances are one thing but I don’t give many more than that unless they’re actually warranted. If I have to make the call for you then you aren’t ready. I miss an old friend more than I miss being with her already. I did learn a lot though. I like all that passionate good stuff, but I need more of the substance to back it up. I need someone who can be mature and take things seriously, while still appreciating the fun and stupid things. I’m ready for that now, I needed this to realize that. That’s what I want. I hope the next one is the last one, or at least has the potential to be. That’s what I really want. I’ve handled people’s baggage, I’ve had fun, but all of that doesn’t matter in the end. I don’t think I’ll be going younger again soon though if the maturity isn’t there, everyone’s right and I probably do need older, or at least the maturity that they would typically have. A real woman, not a girl in a woman’s body, I’ve had enough of those.
sex is cool but have you ever heard a really good bass line
There’s lots of fingering going on either way.
So that’s what it feels like to completely break down with the help of alcohol…I never want to experience that again……Went from the happiest I’ve felt in a few years to the most vulnerable and upset I’ve felt in a few years….I still don’t know what to do, sorry for the half-drunk rant. I have no idea how any of it is going to play out, I’m just fucking sick of things like this being the norm. To have something so perfect just get yanked away like that, with the general bullshit I get to deal with on a daily basis, the other things that have been overwhelming for a while…I just don’t get how this is supposedly fair. How I deserved this from someone…or why it seems it’s like this every fucking time I do let my guard down.
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